Firstly, a little bit about how I got to where I am today.
Ten years ago, I was living the life I had created for myself. I was married (to a man with severe depression), was raising two little girls aged 18 months and 3 years (and felt like I was doing a terrible job)… I was working full-time, finishing a PhD, landscaping our backyard and generally making sure that I had 15 balls in the air at any one time. I was terrible at asking for help, had no immediate family of my own for support, and generally felt like I had the weight of the world on my shoulders. I was angry all the time, but to outsiders I was a high achiever doing great! Except that I wasn’t sleeping, I was self-medicating to get to sleep, and drinking over a litre of caffeine a day to stay awake and function during the day. I was putting on weight. I was dying on the inside. And then the real kicker…….
Picking up my girls from daycare one evening, I collapsed. With my three year old strapped into her car seat, and my 18 month old in my arms, I fell to the ground. My heart stopped. Twenty minutes of CPR, rushed to hospital, put into an induced coma and an ICD (implantable cardioverter device) implanted – I was later to learn that not only was I less than .05% of the population to survive an out of hospital cardiac arrest without severe brain injury – but that the doctors had no explanation of the incident.
But I know why it happened. I created that event in some way or another. I was so tired and stressed and overwhelmed with life – I just needed it to stop for awhile. I said so to friends on an almost daily basis. “I just need life to slow down or stop for awhile so I can catch up”. And so my body gave me what I needed – and I’m eternally thankful I was given a second chance to do things differently.
And so if you’re experiencing any of life’s nudges – physical symptoms that are unexplained, or chronic illness, or intense unhappiness with your life, whatever aspect that might be – work, your relationships, or life directions. Listen to them. These ‘nudges’? Their a wake-up call for you – a call for you to change your story – to rewrite the play that is your life.
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